Actually I just finished reading my best friend blog and I felt that I am very lazy if compare to her. She has just delivered a cute baby boy on 27 February 2011 but she never stop uploading her blog all the while but my blog was blank for 2 years plus. I really miss the time I can spend on writing blog silently. After giving birth to my Joan, my time are keep moving around in a small circle where I go to office during day time and rush for tuition class after dinner then accompany my Joan until she sleeps. After she slept, I need to do housework or slept with her because of over tiring. I have been living like this for 2 years. Will it change? Nobody know...
I also miss the time I can spent with my family. Even I stay with my hubby and daughter but I felt that I didn't spend enough time with them. There are 24 hours per day but I only spend around 3 hours per day with them during weekdays. Can you imagine how useless I am?Really wish that they won't blame on me. I also miss my family in Miri. I always plan to go back but due to many reasons I forced to stop my plan ... Why? Why all these things happen?
Beside time, I also miss the happy go lucky Angela. Recently I found that I always think on negative way. May be my age increase year by year and my worries are increase day by day. Sometime I even cant sleep well without any reasons. I hate this type of me. I am not like this before. I will always think positively and act as what I felt but now... Where is Angela? The original Angela without any worries and negative thought...
Well it is time for me to take my rest so I wish that I can keep on using this blog to find back original Angela. Good night everybody...
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